Romanced by the King of All Ages

I've never sang with so much conviction of God's love, grace and His call in my life before... well... not in a long, long time...

Today, on stage, I just suddenly felt stupid, I felt that, I was there for no reason, that me being there, or not being there, had no effect whatsoever... Worship would still be the same without me...

I just asked Daddy God, why? Why was I given this [i]insignificant[/i] role? Why?

My mind's eye brought me back to the call Jeff gave me, telling me that I would be transferred to the choir from backup... to train...
And here I was... among some singers who "didn't take what they were doing seriously"...

I didn't expect Him to reply, but He did... And what He said, just brought me to tears...

"I didn't send you here to learn how to sing... I sent you here to learn humility..."

I remembered, Sean saying to me, "Y'know... God would rather use a man, which has small dreams, but serves faithfully in the small things... than a man who has big dreams, but isn't faithful in the little things..."

I remembered, Lauda telling me, "Hey, don't strive for what you want, rest in Jesus, trust Him, be happy at doing what you are doing now..."

Then my Daddy God said... "No matter how good you are... I cannot use a man who is self-righteous..."

To love is to correct that person when you know he is gonna hurt himself...

My Daddy loves me so much... no matter how much I screw up, how many times... He still gives me chance after chance...
His call in my life is real... It never seemed more real to me, than it does now...

I almost cried there and then on stage... but crying on stage in front of 1500 people never did seem right...
I couldn't do anything but worship... with all my heart... all my soul... with everything I had...

[i]I am my Beloved's, and His desire is for me[/i]
-Song of Songs

Sept 11... what does it mean? I guess to some, it meant the loss of a love one... to some, the day war was declared on just about every nation in the world...

But, to me, and to a bunch of crazy God lovin' youths... Sept 11 meant much more... Sept 11 isn't just about war, nor is it about the WTC... Sept 11, according to astrological placement, and a whole bunch of century old records... (I'm talking science and history)... is Jesus' Birthday :wink:

Btw... it's also the day GiG`04 was held at YMCA Singapore! Man! I tell you! there was some crazy screaming, some crazy shouting, and a whole lot of God's love there last Sat...

An` even though I was backstage... I could feel the whole place shaking *haha*
looking at the youths go crazy, it's just such a great feeling to see the youths on fire for God... to know that Jesus loves them :wink:

*Haha* This wk was darn fun manz!! I kinda played soccer or bball or both everyday... =)

Thursday I went out with Tim... actually we planned to just play bball... but we went to watch "The Terminal" 1st...

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If a man, can love someone so much... How much more my God loves me...

[i]John 15:13 Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. [/i]

I almost cried in the cinema... *haha* not coz the show was touching(it was though...), but bcoz I just caught a mere glimpse of the extent of His love for me... man... If I had gotten everything that day... I think I'll still be in tears now... :wink:

Y'know... ppl can wonder why others just weep in His presence... It's bcoz they caught a glimpse of His love for them... no one can understand the "totalness" of God's love... not in this lifetime... not even in a hundred lifetimes... It's a love that cannot be explained... and... on my part, I'd rather not know why or how... just know that He loves me, It's a day to day revelation, each day I find out more... :wink:

[A1]
I stand before a broken man,
Watch as His blood flows
It covers me...
That crimson tide has washed away
All my sin and shame, it covers me...
Covers me...

[B1]
You are my Saviour,
Redeemer, broken so I wouldn't have to be...
Jesus, lover,
Your love assures me of Your victory...
I am free...

[C1]
Now I am forgiven,
Indebted to His grace and love,
Forever...
I'm lost in His perfect love
Never have I known love such as this

[Bridge]
I am free...

©Asher Low-NCC

Zzz... tired...played bball frm 8.30am to 2.30pm... wah lau eh... I think my shooting improved leh... cannot be tyco... now at least 50-60% of my shots went in... and that's in a match... I'm a bit better when I train... maybe I can make it to the poly team... :wink: Trust God lar! with Him... [b]ALL[/b] things are possible... yup!

Yeshterday was Tim's Bdae, so I stayed over at his house with a bunch of the guys... *haha* I got lost when we went to go play bball... *wah* Tim's house was damn hot... coz I had to sleep in the living room... then I got caught in the middle of a mosquito feeding frenzy... *haha* nvm lar... praise Jesus I still could get to sleep :wink:
Damn fun man...