Romanced by the King of All Ages

I finally understand why ppl can come up to me and tell me that they couldn't help but cry when I sang that day...

Today's BS message wasn't really for me, coz it was about marriage... but all thru the svc, I just felt Daddy God tellin me, I love you...
After the svc, shaun started to sing Jesus Loves me... I kinda sang along... I just knew His love for me... I was reminded of my past, before and after I knew Him... And I just heard Him say, "I love you..." It wasn't even about the cross, not about His stripes... What He saved me from pales in comparison... but those 3 words brought me to tears...

I know it's kinda wierd to see a guy cry... and I could hear some ppl talkin behind me, saying things like, "Oh, just coz he(me) sang that song onstage, he's crying now..." or something like that...
and "Oh then the girl(Zandra) leh?"
I didn't care... at all... what ppl said didn't matter to me, at all... I just wanted to stay there forever... in His presence...

I don't know why those ppl couldn't understand... but I feel [i]really[/i] sorry for them... I'm not angry, nor was I at the time... my heart just went out to them... I understand but a fraction of God's love for me... but those ppl didn't even understand that much... my heart just aches to see ppl that can go in and out of His love, like it's nothing... they're just missing out...

One day... They'll experience His love for them ya?

~Selah~

Ooh! oOoh! OoOOoh!!! EpIII is comin soon!!!

OoOoOoooOoOoooH!!!! I just gotta be there for the premiere... :wink:

*hehe* If any of my buddies read my blog and find out for the 1st time I'm a star wars nut... I only got one thing to say... "HOW COULD YOU???"
my life isn't just about singing u know...

Ya anyway... I don't do stuff like this often, but this is a fan-trailer that was made right aft EpII...

Click [b]Here[/b] to see it...

Have fun!! Like I said... It's a [i]FAN-trailer[/i]... not a real one... the real one's up on Starwars.com

Woah... I really havn't been blogging for awhile now... =) *haha* actually I shouldn't even be blogging now... I'm in the midst of me 'O's...

*haha* actually I really dunno what to write... heck... it's been a real boring few weeks... I havn't even been singing for like over a month...

well... the 'O's have helped me learn alot about myself, about putting my trust in His love for me... I've never been so "unconfident" in myself before... & I've experienced fear that I never have before... The main thing is, Romans 8:37 says this, that I am more than a conqueror thru Jesus` love for me...

And when the rubber meets the road, who are you gonna put you're trust in? I've tried putting my trust in myself, I failed miserably... I believe I lost about 25 points for my Math paper1... But despite the circumstances, I know that my God is good.... his grace is and will be there for me, and I will still get my A1s...

Just like when Shadrack, Meshak, and Abednego did not compromise and bow even though they faced a burning furnace so hot that the mighty men that threw them in died from the heat, I will not bow before my circumstances.... They were delivered when they had but a shadow of the covenant that I'm under... what about me?

If my Daddy could send Jesus to die for me, why shouldn't I get my A1s?

If my Jesus did not compromise and just quit His journey before sozo'ing me, I will not give up and quit... It may seem that I'm always full of faith, always trusting in God... but I'm the exact opposite... there are times that I cannot help but be full of fear, cannot help but think that my problems are so great I cannot overcome them...

But thank Him, that everytime I fall, everytime I slip up, everytime I look at my problems and think they're big, He always comes and says, " Hey, don't worry, I'm much bigger"... He always steps in and catches me... He always says, "don't be afraid, baby, Daddy's here"...

Whoever said that so called "Men of God", or Mighty Men never fall? whoever said that people like me, who can at times, put they're entire trust in His love, never screw up?

To tell the truth, people like me are the people that need His love the most... We are the ones that have no choice but to bet all we have on Jesus' love for us...
David's mighty men, started off as people who were in distress, debt, and were discontented... yet look at how they were annointed by God... Elijah fled in the face of adversity, when Jezebel wanted to kill him... Jerry Savelle himself said that even he sometimes gets pressured by his circumstances... Apostle Paul said, "whatever I want to do, I cannot, however i do what I do not want to do"

I am but a red blooded man... the only diff is that I'm loved by God... And that's the thing that's gonna pull me thru... not only pull me thru, but as a "huper-nikao" more than a conqueror!!! My victory is not in myself, not in my strength, My victory was won 2000 years ago on a hill called Golgotha, when my love Jesus, died for me, became sin for me, was seperated from the one who loved Him most, and called out, "Eli! Eli! Lama Sabucthani!!" all that for me... so that I could be adopted and accepted as a Son by His father, now my Daddy...

Now why shouldn't I get my victory? Why shouldn't I not get my A1s?