why....
why is it that i cannot express myself? what is it that i fear? how many songs have i written? can't i just tell the truth? what is it that i fear?
give me just one chance...
let me sing to you...
just one song...
listen...
don't resist it...
let it sink in...
let me give all i have...
just one song...
you alone can make my song take flight...
Live Twice...
don't leave now
not yet
they're words i
regret
and i'm sorry
somehow
i only
wanted to make you proud
if i could only let you know
i'd give up everything i own
for just one more day with you
there's nothing i wouldn't do
i could not let it pass me by
i'd make every sacrifice
to bring me back your love
if only we could live twice
if only we could live twice
when you told me
i froze
it still echoes
in my soul
please forgive me
if i didn't say
i love you
every single day
if i could only let you know
i'd give up everything i own
for just one more day with you
there's nothing i wouldn't do
i could not let it pass me by
i'd make every sacrifice
to bring me back your love
if only we could live twice
if only we could live twice
nobody told me we only get one chance
i didnt know that our time would turn so fast
why we have to say goodbye i dont understand
if i could only let you know
i'd give up everything i own
for just one more day with you
there's nothing i wouldn't do
i could not let it pass me by
i'd make every sacrifice
to bring me back your love
if only we could live twice
i could not let it pass me by
nothing i give to sacrifice
to bring me back your love
if only we could live twice
if only we could live twice
we'll meet in another life
if only we could live twice
if only we could live twice
Just pondering...
U know what? I'm beginning to think that I'm damn opera...
the fact that I voice train to "Phantom of the Opera" songs is wierd enough... *haha*
And for some reason I have this funny ability to naturally sing all those wierd Andrew Lloyd Webber demi-tones...
hmm... yeah... maybe I'll write my own opera one day... abt my life story... *haha* might get a few ppl saved... hee`
yeah... anyways I can feel my voice getting more powerful day by day... hee` yeah... accelerated growth... ^^ thankz babe!
Lame stuffs... hee`
HAVE YOU EVER.. 1. Kissed your cousin: no...
2. Ran away: haha got got...
3. Pictured your yes: how do you picture yes?
5. Broken someone's heart: hmm... tat's for me to know...
6. Been in love: all the time ^^ Jesus rocks my world yeah?
7. Cried when someone died: yeahx
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: hai... denise... avril... alicia keys... yeah...
9. Broken a bone: yeah my own stupid fault lar...
10. Done something embarrassing: everyday can?
11. Lied: of coz... who hasn't?
12. Cried in school: erm.. yeah when I found out my dad had cancer...
13. Coke or Pepsi: coke
14. Sprite or 7UP: erm... actually... teh tarik can?
15. Girls or Guys: BI!! *haha*
16. Flowers or Candy: candy
17. Scruff or Clean shaved: I dun shave... once in a while lar... friggin lazy...
18. Blondes or Brunettes: brown can?
19. Bitchy or Slutty: ermz... retarded can?
20. Tall or Short: TALL!!!!
21. Pants or Shorts: pants
22. Night or Day: Day
23. What do you notice first: notice?
24. Last Person You Slow Danced With: I can't dance man...
25. Worst Question To Ask: are u a gal?
26. Showered: !! u mean u havn't?
27. Stepped outside: roll!!
28. Took a bath: Oh my gosh u dirty fellow! no wonder ur all yellow...
29. Romantic memory: I'm not very romantic u'know...
30. Your Good Luck Charm: then again... do I need one?
31. Person You Hate Most: that no good creepy S.A.Tan...
32. Best Thing That Has Happened: Jesus!
33. On your table: da com... and stuff...
34. Picture on your desktop: erm... dun have leh... lazy to put...
35. Color: paper... haha origami...
36. Movie: can laff, can cry... best of all.. can disturb ppl... hee`
37. Artist or band: band... like mine!! yeah!!
38. Car: I have 2!! one right and one left...
39. Ice Cream: mango!!!
40. Drinks: teh tarik!!
41. Food: can eat.. means I like...
42. Makes You Laugh: myself... and other retarded ppl... ^^
43. Makes You Smile: Jeses
44. Can Make You Feel Better: Jesus
45. Has A Crush On You: ian... mervyn... or to anyone above 100kg... I'm a potential victim.. *laughz*
46: Do You Have A Crush On Someone: I'm 56kg can? crush... ants lar...
47. Who Has It Easier: Saddam... just had to sit in a hole...
48. Gives You A Funny Feeling When You See Them: Potential victims... like the pringles man... or ppl with turbans... *haha*
::Breathe::
You gave me life
You breathed into me
Made me just like You
In Your image
You are mine
And I am Yours now
WE cannot be defined
We are One
[A2]
You gave your life so
I could live mine..
Without Your perfect love,
I am nothing..
You took my shame
Jesus You love me...
I'll never be alone...
You'll be with me...
[C1]
Breathe me in...
I am Your Oxygen...
I breathe You in...
You are my life...
[B1]
No angels principalities
Powers height nor mystery
Can seperate us from the love of God...
Even if I try to I can never run away...
You and I, We can never be apart...
Its You I breathe...
©Asher Low
::A Reflection of You::
[A1]
You've taken me from the ashes
Shaped me into a man
You died for my transgressions
You made me who I am
Oh Jesus...
[A2]
I would be so lost without You
Your perfect love for me
I won't make it thru the distance
I see infront of me
Oh Jesus...
[A3]
You took me and loved me forever
when I had no where to go
You gave up all you had to save me
You breathe after my soul
Oh Jesus...
[C1]
Mould me into the man I want to be
Totally, exactly like you
Jesus make me and shape me as if
You were lookin into a mirror...
I wanna be a reflection of you...
©Asher Low
Ready...
One I fear I cannot keep
I've made a promise
There's only one release
But am I ready to progress
To soar above the clouds
Both of us together
Flying towards the Sun...
Baby am I ready to accept another
After all I've sacrificed?
If I'm not, our hearts together
Will be broken as mine has a hundred times before...
Dance with me...
Dance with me
From the Sunset to the Sunrise...
Dance with me...
Ur Romance is all I need...
Dance with me... I will know if I am ready...
To soar into this battle once again...
Is it gonna be this time that I will win?
Am I ready,
Am I who I want to be yet
Am I ready,
Will this really truly be...
This time will I emerge victorious
or will it be one more defeat?
Dance with me...
Why has she stepped into the picture...
Is it the U in her I see?
Will she really be my future?
Is she the one for me?
Is it time to leave the nest...
Am I truly charged enough,
To soar above the rest?
Tell me Baby...
Are our voices truly matched enough to rise above the ocean's roar...
Am I finally prepared to let u be my source...
Am I ready?
Tell me... Am I ready...
Dance with me...
Lets never stop singing our song...
Yay!
:shock: wah lau... sound so old...
Anyway I got this in the email and it was damn farnie lar... *haha*
Analogies and Metaphors
These came from the annual "Dark and Stormy Night" competition. Actual analogies and metaphors found in high school essays:
1. Her face was a perfect oval, like a circle that had its two sides gently compressed by a Thigh Master.
2. His thoughts tumbled in his head, making and breaking alliances like underpants in a dryer without Cling Free.
3. He spoke with the wisdom that can only come from experience, like a guy who went blind because he looked at a solar eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it and now goes around the country speaking at high schools about the dangers of looking at a solar eclipse without one of those boxes with a pinhole in it.
4. She grew on him like she was a colony of E. coli and he was room-temperature Canadian beef.
5. She had a deep, throaty, genuine laugh, like that sound a dog makes just before it throws up.
6. Her vocabulary was as bad as, like, whatever.
7. He was as tall as a six-foot-three-inch tree.
8. The revelation that his marriage of 30 years had disintegrated because of his wife's infidelity came as a rude shock, like a surcharge at a formerly surcharge-free ATM.
9. The little boat gently drifted across the pond exactly the way a bowling ball wouldn't.
10. McBride fell 12 stories, hitting the pavement like a Hefty bag filled with vegetable soup.
11. From the attic came an unearthly howl. The whole scene had an eerie, surreal quality, like when you're on vacation in another city and Jeopardy comes on at 7:00 p.m. instead of 7:30.
12. Her hair glistened in the rain like a nose hair after a sneeze.
13. The hailstones leaped from the pavement, just like maggots when you fry them in hot grease.
14. Long separated by cruel fate, the star-crossed lovers raced across the grassy field toward each other like two freight trains, one having left Cleveland at 6:36 p.m. traveling at 55 mph, the other from Topeka at 4:19 p.m. at a speed of 35 mph.
15. They lived in a typical suburban neighborhood with picket fences that resembled Nancy Kerrigan's teeth.
16. John and Mary had never met. They were like two hummingbirds who had also never met.
17. He fell for her like his heart was a mob informant and she was the East River.
18. Even in his last years, Grandpappy had a mind like a steel trap, only one that had been left out so long, it had rusted shut.
19. Shots rang out, as shots are wont to do.
20.. The plan was simple, like my brother-in-law Phil. But unlike Phil, this plan just might work.
21. The young fighter had a hungry look, the kind you get from not eating for a while.
22. He was as lame as a duck. Not the metaphorical lame duck, either, but a real duck that was actually lame, maybe from stepping on a land mine or something.
23. The ballerina rose gracefully en pointe and extended one slender leg behind her, like a dog at a fire hydrant.
24. It was an American tradition, like fathers chasing kids around with power tools.
25. He was deeply in love. When she spoke, he thought he heard bells, as if she were a garbage truck backing up.
26. Her eyes were like limpid pools, only they had forgotten to put in any pH cleanser.
27. She walked into my office like a centipede with 98 missing legs.
Prata!!
I met Larry, Puiser and Bei for prata at 1... and I met darn alot of wierd ppl on the way there lar... there was one damn fat monk(how do u get that fat just by eating veggies?), then there was this lady with some serious case of mumps, then there was this guy with an elvis hairdo which was talking to himself... *haha* nvm lar Jesus still loves them...
*haha* We had fun at the prata place... talking about our childhood and stuffs, I kinda let go a few stories from my extremely colorful past... *hehe*
Anyway I lugged my bowling ball all around singapore for nothing lar... coz when we reached the bowling alley... they were having a competition there... so no lanes... so we went to play pool lar... and the pool place sucked big time manz... the stupid table shoot the ball straight it will curve wan leh... oh my gosh! made me look like some half past six newbie player... :x
Aiyah nvm lar... I saw this guy with one leg shorter than the other on the way to Suntec, I was waiting for the shuttle bus... then it was damn sudden, but i felt in my Spirit to go lay my hands on him...
but I thought to myself... wah lau.. what if he doesn't get healed? then i give him false hopes...
Anyway, my bus was also there lar... so i didn't lay hands on him...
But on the bus... i felt damn pathetic lar... if I had enough courage to even touch him... he wouldn't have to walk with crutches for the rest of his life...then I started condemning myself...
I was like "asher... God has given confirmation after confirmation that when u lay your hands on the sick they will be healed but time after time after time... u never pick up the courage to do it... you're pathetic man..."
then i started to think about how that guy would have to live the rest of his life with crutches... I seriously wanted to punch myself...
Then my inner voice reminded me about something we were talking about at the prata shop... about how some people could see evil spirits, I remembered I had told the guys that it was because those people had opened themselves up to fear...
Then I remembered a story that Lauda had shared with me super long ago... about Elisha and his servant...
And the heart of the king of Syria was enraged over this thing. And he called his servants and said to them, Will you not tell me who of us is for the king of Israel? And one of his servants said, No, my lord O king, For Elisha the prophet who is in Israel tells the king of Israel the words that you speak in your sleeping room. And he said, Go and see where he is, and I will send and seize him. And it was told him, Behold, he is in Dothan. And he sent horses and chariots there, and a heavy army. And they came in by night and surrounded the city. And the servant of the man of God rose up early and went out. And, behold, an army was surrounding the city, and horses and chariots. And his young man said to him, Alas, my lord! What shall we do? And he said, Do not fear, for those with us are more than those with them.
And Elisha prayed and said, I beg You, O Jehovah, open his eyes so that he may see. And Jehovah opened the eyes of the young man. And he looked, and behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha. -2 Kings 6:11-17
It seems when we focus on our fears, our circumstances... we open ourselves to see the bad around us...
But when our eyes are opened to God's goodness, His grace and His love... our circumstances change to such an extent... that the playing field isn't only leveled... it's turned in the opposite direction! with us on the winning side!
regarding that man... what I saw at first was how he missed out on the chance to get healed of a lifelong disease, all because I didn't have the balls to go lay my hands on him...
but u know what? God's grace is there for him... no matter what... the price was paid on the cross 2000 years ago... for that man... Jesus didn't take those stripes for nothing... in fact Jesus loved that man so much, that a million pens wouldn't have enough ink to write out how much He loved that man... now y shouldn't that man get healed? I know God's grace is there... I don't needa be the one who lays my hands on him... but I don't care... coz I know tat by Jesus stripes... that man is HEALED!!
Bei... thanx for comforting me =) *hehe* good didi... next time kor kor buy u lollipop... *smilez*
11 Jan 2005
Sorry Lally!!! abt dragging u all ard S'pore fer nuthin!!
Anywayz...
I went to watch the Phantom of the Opera with Can... *haha* damn farnie... halfway thru the movie both of us needed to go toilet lar... then the stupid lido theatre had this damn big EXIT sign below the screen... *haha* so we went there coz nearer... then when we reached the door.... there was this small sign tat said "do not use door unless emergency" wah lau... damn malu... *haha* Anyway the show was ok lar... not that nice... except the last part lar which was heart wrenching... the Phantom damn poor thing manz... Can was sniffling... *hehe*
Anyway I had a damn powerful revelation yesterday...
It was when I was doing my quiet time yesterday and I was reading Luke 21:34 "But take heed to yourselves that your hearts not be loaded down with headaches, and drinking, and anxieties of life, and that day come suddenly upon you"
And coz I was damn tired I fell asleep lar... *haha*
but I only fell asleep for a few seconds... coz the Spirit just gave me 2 words, "white hawk"... So I was like damn excited lar... wanted to go check out the biblical meaning...
this is what I found in my bible dictionary abt the word white...
White
A symbol of purity (2Ch_5:12; Psa_51:7; Isa_1:18; Rev_3:18; Rev_7:14). Our Lord, at his transfiguration, appeared in raiment “white as the light” (Mat_17:2, etc.).
Then I also found these verses
Rev 3:4-5 But you have a few people in Sardis who have not soiled their clothes. They will walk with me in white clothes because they are worthy.
The person who conquers in this way will wear white clothes, and I will never erase his name from the Book of Life. I will acknowledge his name in the presence of my Father and his angels.
Sardis is named coz it's a mining ground for Sardius...
Sardius in the bible always refers to Jesus' shed blood...
And white also refer's to righteousness...
then this is what I found out about the hawk
Hawk
ho^k (נץ, ne¯c; ἱέραξ, hie´rax, and γλαῦξ, glau´x; Latin Accipiter nisus): A bird of prey of the genus accipiter. Large hawks were numerous in Palestine. The largest were 2 ft. long, have flat heads, hooked beaks, strong talons and eyes appearing the keenest and most comprehensive of any bird. They can sail the length or breadth of the Holy Land many times a day. It is a fact worth knowing that mist and clouds interfere with the vision of birds and they hide, and hungry and silent wait for fair weather, so you will see them sailing and soaring on clear days only. These large hawks and the glede are of eagle-like nature, nesting on Carmel and on the hills of Galilee, in large trees and on mountain crags. They flock near Beersheba, and live in untold numbers in the wilderness of the Dead Sea. They build a crude nest of sticks and twigs and carry most of the food alive to their young. Of course they were among the birds of prey that swarm over the fresh offal from slaughter and sacrifice. No bird steers with its tail in flight in a more pronounced manner than the hawk. These large birds are all-the-year residents, for which reason no doubt the people distinguished them from smaller families that migrated. They knew the kite that Isaiah mentioned in predicting the fall of Edom. With them the smaller, brighter-colored kestrels, that flocked over the rocky shores of the Dead Sea and over the ruins of deserted cities, seemed to be closest in appearance to the birds we include in the general term “falcon.” Their ate mice, insects and small birds, but not carrion. The abomination lists of Lev_11:16 and Deu_14:15 each include hawks in a general term and specify several species as unfit for food. Job_39:26 reads:
“Is it by thy wisdom that the hawk soareth,
And stretcheth her wings toward the south?”
Aside from calling attention to the miraculous flight, this might refer to migration, or to the wonderful soaring exhibitions of these birds.
I also found these verses...
Job 39:26-30 Does the hawk soar from your understanding? Will he spread his wings toward the south?
Or does the eagle mount up at your mouth, and make his nest on high?
He lives and stays on the rock, on the crag of the rock and the stronghold.
From there he seeks food; his eyes see afar off.
And his young brood also sucks up blood; and where the pierced ones are, there he is.
Doesn't the hawk remind u of an eagle?
Another word for Hawk is nayts... which also means flower(known for brilliancy and flashing speed)
It's a coupled with luke 21:34... which talks about the last days...
while I was trying to put 2 and 2 together... these words came to me thru the Spirit...
We the third day generation, can rest in His grace, the fact that we are a people bought by blood... Umcompromisingly righteous, just as Jesus is... This day, in this dark world, we will rise with flashing speed, shining brilliantly. Soaring. Looking not at ourselves, or at the world, but looking towards the Sun... Jesus at the Cross...
One of the reasons y the sun was taken away when Christ was on the Cross... was to show that even it in it's glory was no match for the Son of Righteousness that arose with healing in it's wings!
*Smiles* Not happy with me then... u deal with my Dad lar...
Oh my goodness! I'm never going to JC!
*Haha* I woke up late... and then on the way to bishan stn... dunno y I suddenly tot that we were supposed to meet at bedok.. *hahaha*
Oh and Bei left her hp on the cab there... nvm God will restore her one 7 times better... or 7 phones... *haha*
eh NJC ar... wah lau eh... boring manz... we managed to sneak into one of the lectures... and it was so boring!!! We were playing bingo in the back of the class!
Oh and the DM asked Tim to cut his hair... *hahahaha*
When we decided to like just walk out... we got caught... BY THE SAME DM!!! *haha*
Oh manz... Even when I get my 6 pts... I'm dead set on going to Poly...
Oh after we left... we went to suntec to walk walk... *hehe*
Can u believe it? We were playing blind mice and "tian sia wu di" at Sky Garden... We're retarded manz... *hahaha*
Oh and Puiser gave us a treat to like tons of curly fries at macs!! Thanx!! My tummy loves u Puiser!!
I fell asleep infront of the TV from 6.40 to 9.30... wah lau eh... must have been some real boring show... actually, I can't remember what it was!
-Interview on Thurs! So excited! I'll get this job in Jesus` Name!-
bleahxx... uneventful week *haha* wish it was 2004... I wanna go back to school...
Then my social life is put on a standstill lor... coz everybody else got school...
*haha* wadeva lar...
Anywayz... I kinda went to watch Fockers with Debz on monday... then can u believe it? I met Larry and gang in the movie... wah lau... i sms him to ask him to go... then he nv reply... then I meet him there... *haha*
Then yesterday... Brandon, Candice, Ian and I were supposed to go ice-skating... then we went all the way to jurong... then the skating rink was CLOSED!! wah lau eh... it was damn *grr* lor...
so we spent the whole day in K-Box...
Sent my resume in to HATC this week too... I WANNA DO SMTH!!!
Nvm lar... Jesus still loves me :wink:
*hehe* I realised that without school I kinda spend tons of cash...
Nvm lar... Jesus is my provision 8)
Maybe I'll go sign up to go Sri Lanka as a counsellor... go do a crash course in Sinhalese... *haha*