dad...
08.27.05 (12:58 pm) [edit]
In 1900, fathers prayed their children would learn English.
Today, fathers pray their children will speak English.
In 1900, if a father put a roof over his family's head, he was a success.
Today, it takes a roof, deck, pool, and 4-car garage. And that's just the vacation home.
In 1900, a father waited for the doctor to tell him when the baby arrived.
Today, a father must wear a smock, know how to breathe, and make sure film is in the video camera.
In 1900, fathers passed on clothing to their sons.
Today, kids wouldn't touch Dad's clothes if they were sliding naked down an icicle.
In 1900, fathers could count on children to join the family business.
Today, fathers pray their kids will soon come home from college long enough to teach them how to work the computer and set the VCR.
In 1900, fathers pined for old country Romania, Italy, or Russia.
Today, fathers pine for old country Hank Williams.
In 1900, fathers shook their children gently and whispered, "Wake up, it's time for school."
Today, kids shake their fathers violently at 4 a.m., shouting: "Wake up, it's time for hockey practice."
In 1900, a father came home from work to find his wife and children at the supper table.
Today, a father comes home to a note: "Jimmy's at baseball, Cindy's at gymnastics, I'm at gym, Pizza in fridge."
In 1900, fathers and sons would have heart-to-heart conversations while fishing in a stream.
Today, fathers pluck the headphones off their sons' ears and shout, "WHEN YOU HAVE A MINUTE.."
In 1900, a father gave a pencil box for Christmas, and the kid was all smiles.
Today, a father spends $800 at Toys 'R' Us, and the kid screams: "I wanted a Game Cube!"
you know... sometimes... i still wonder... what it'll be like if i still had a dad... dude... there are times i can't even remember how he looked like anymore...
losing 2 "fathers" in a span of 5 years isn't an easy thing... zac and ian would know...
nobody's there to guide you, no one's there to protect you, no one's gonna be there to listen and lend a shoulder right aft you get out of a fight, no one's gonna be there to stand up for you... etc...
You're on your own...
I shared about this with my cg during my first meeting with them as one of the group leaders... and hey... when i saw the tears in their eyes... i realised how alone i was before my life turned ard...
but you know the amazing part of it all, is that, when i was at what i thought was the last turn of my life. suicidal, angry, with nothing left to lose, having made almost every stupid mistake possible except getting someone pregnant... (which was next on the list)
something happened. someone, told me that i wasn't alone, that He was my father... that when i was scared, i could go to Him, that when i had a crush i could tell Him, during my next fight He would be there with me, when i was alone He would be there, when i made a bad mistake, He'll bail me out...
because He was the one who made me, because He was the one who sacrificed everything for me, and He could do it, because He was the great I Am...
Someone told me that i was loved... worthy to be loved... and that i meant everything...
kneeling down at youth explosion, with a huge weight on my shoulders holding me down...
i don't remember crying so much in my life... 7 years worth of tears... dude... the carpet ard me was soaked... *haha*
that was when my life turned around...
He's my Dad, that's gonna provide for the bills... that's gonna put the next meal on the table, Who's gonna pay for my school fees... just because, He's my Father... and that's what dads do...
and He wants to be your father too...
lost? He'll do everything to find you... Lonely? He'll stand by your side... afraid? He'll carry you in His arms... and so so much more...
hey... He loves you... :wink: so much more than you know... it doesn't matter who you are... what you've done... it's just an unconditional love that He has for you...
accept it! probably the only thing you can do about it... *grinz*
Today, fathers pray their children will speak English.
In 1900, if a father put a roof over his family's head, he was a success.
Today, it takes a roof, deck, pool, and 4-car garage. And that's just the vacation home.
In 1900, a father waited for the doctor to tell him when the baby arrived.
Today, a father must wear a smock, know how to breathe, and make sure film is in the video camera.
In 1900, fathers passed on clothing to their sons.
Today, kids wouldn't touch Dad's clothes if they were sliding naked down an icicle.
In 1900, fathers could count on children to join the family business.
Today, fathers pray their kids will soon come home from college long enough to teach them how to work the computer and set the VCR.
In 1900, fathers pined for old country Romania, Italy, or Russia.
Today, fathers pine for old country Hank Williams.
In 1900, fathers shook their children gently and whispered, "Wake up, it's time for school."
Today, kids shake their fathers violently at 4 a.m., shouting: "Wake up, it's time for hockey practice."
In 1900, a father came home from work to find his wife and children at the supper table.
Today, a father comes home to a note: "Jimmy's at baseball, Cindy's at gymnastics, I'm at gym, Pizza in fridge."
In 1900, fathers and sons would have heart-to-heart conversations while fishing in a stream.
Today, fathers pluck the headphones off their sons' ears and shout, "WHEN YOU HAVE A MINUTE.."
In 1900, a father gave a pencil box for Christmas, and the kid was all smiles.
Today, a father spends $800 at Toys 'R' Us, and the kid screams: "I wanted a Game Cube!"
you know... sometimes... i still wonder... what it'll be like if i still had a dad... dude... there are times i can't even remember how he looked like anymore...
losing 2 "fathers" in a span of 5 years isn't an easy thing... zac and ian would know...
nobody's there to guide you, no one's there to protect you, no one's gonna be there to listen and lend a shoulder right aft you get out of a fight, no one's gonna be there to stand up for you... etc...
You're on your own...
I shared about this with my cg during my first meeting with them as one of the group leaders... and hey... when i saw the tears in their eyes... i realised how alone i was before my life turned ard...
but you know the amazing part of it all, is that, when i was at what i thought was the last turn of my life. suicidal, angry, with nothing left to lose, having made almost every stupid mistake possible except getting someone pregnant... (which was next on the list)
something happened. someone, told me that i wasn't alone, that He was my father... that when i was scared, i could go to Him, that when i had a crush i could tell Him, during my next fight He would be there with me, when i was alone He would be there, when i made a bad mistake, He'll bail me out...
because He was the one who made me, because He was the one who sacrificed everything for me, and He could do it, because He was the great I Am...
Someone told me that i was loved... worthy to be loved... and that i meant everything...
kneeling down at youth explosion, with a huge weight on my shoulders holding me down...
i don't remember crying so much in my life... 7 years worth of tears... dude... the carpet ard me was soaked... *haha*
that was when my life turned around...
He's my Dad, that's gonna provide for the bills... that's gonna put the next meal on the table, Who's gonna pay for my school fees... just because, He's my Father... and that's what dads do...
and He wants to be your father too...
lost? He'll do everything to find you... Lonely? He'll stand by your side... afraid? He'll carry you in His arms... and so so much more...
hey... He loves you... :wink: so much more than you know... it doesn't matter who you are... what you've done... it's just an unconditional love that He has for you...
accept it! probably the only thing you can do about it... *grinz*
sometimes...
08.15.05 (9:24 pm) [edit]
i just wanna live my life...
get a great job...
get married...
start my business...
go full time...
have kids...
see my dreams come thru...
you know... the works... but smths that just seems so far away...
my job's like temporarily on hold... i'm damn broke at the moment coz well... i'm not working and i stupidly lent away my life's savings... which i possibly might not ever get back...
i feel like a kid again...
i havn't paid my school fees...
i havn't paid my handphone bills...
i havnt paid the electricity bill...
i borrow my textbooks from the library...
i totally miss working...
i miss hanging out with aslam and the guys...
i think abt stupid things like what would i be doing now if i hadn't walked on glass soo long ago...
i feel totally out of control...
thank God He's in control... and this stupid saga's gonna turn around real soon... =)
somehow or other i'm gonna become financially stable again... soon... and i mean soon... not waiting till nxt aug when my 80k comes in.... i mean as in nxt few months soon...
somehow or other i'm gonna get the best job in the world soon...
somehow or other, my sch fees are gonna get paid... i'm gonna get a laptop, a new wardrobe and all the nice watches i could want...
somehow or other... my job and sch will allow me to have the time to hang with aslam and the guys... do camps... and go watch movies every week... not to mention go for keyboard lessons with merv...
somehow or other...
Daddy's gonna carry me thru...
He's not I AM for nothing...
get a great job...
get married...
start my business...
go full time...
have kids...
see my dreams come thru...
you know... the works... but smths that just seems so far away...
my job's like temporarily on hold... i'm damn broke at the moment coz well... i'm not working and i stupidly lent away my life's savings... which i possibly might not ever get back...
i feel like a kid again...
i havn't paid my school fees...
i havn't paid my handphone bills...
i havnt paid the electricity bill...
i borrow my textbooks from the library...
i totally miss working...
i miss hanging out with aslam and the guys...
i think abt stupid things like what would i be doing now if i hadn't walked on glass soo long ago...
i feel totally out of control...
thank God He's in control... and this stupid saga's gonna turn around real soon... =)
somehow or other i'm gonna become financially stable again... soon... and i mean soon... not waiting till nxt aug when my 80k comes in.... i mean as in nxt few months soon...
somehow or other i'm gonna get the best job in the world soon...
somehow or other, my sch fees are gonna get paid... i'm gonna get a laptop, a new wardrobe and all the nice watches i could want...
somehow or other... my job and sch will allow me to have the time to hang with aslam and the guys... do camps... and go watch movies every week... not to mention go for keyboard lessons with merv...
somehow or other...
Daddy's gonna carry me thru...
He's not I AM for nothing...