@ the blujaz...
it rocked la...
today, i heard that i was supposed to meet the band at like 5 la.. so i went down early..
then aileen told me that it was at 7... hurr` but nvm..
the prettiest and sweetest girl alive came to watch me sing =) she cut her hair today! so pretty!!
and i got a flower! *melts*
i couldnt help but look at her from the stage la... there she was, mouthing the words to my song.. smiling back at me.. *awwwww* love u dear... and i mean it with all my heart...
anyways... keong came down to give me his support too.. thanks bro..
butttt... he reached like 2 mins aft i left the stage...
haiyah.. anyways the 2 of us went to have dinna and teh tarik aft that...
and i met this taxi driver who used to live in my block!! *laughs*
wahh so cool can??
anyways.. i'm shaq'd out la.. gonna kun... zzzzz....
and dream of the sweetest prettiest cutest girl in the world...
check this out man!! wooohoo!!
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wahh... why always must have a title wan???
alrite!!! wah hungry.. *haha* anyways..
OGL camp!!
mann... it was sooooooper tiring la..
i thank God for ben sahara lee winston and XY.. mann... they really stepped up to the occasion... and ruth! who "pei wo" tok at nite ^^
i was kinda unhappy with the instructors performances on the first day... ok maybe i was expecting the kind of backup a HA instructor would give me.. but well... erm simply put.. it wasn't very good la.. the level of enthusiasm among the campers was like all time low la...
like i always say la.. haha... the dif between HA and everywhere else... haha...
eh! but hor... during the second day, wahh... change sia... thanks to winston and lee man... and the various instrs
winston gave the most power debrief during the camp la! better than mine la!!!
awesome man.. then after that, qamarul stepped in coz he kinda saw me shaq out la.. thanks to that, haha... spirits were high for the water bomb fight and the performances...
the performances were excellent!! i did chikucha and eppo e tai tai... and kar wei was SOOOPER funny!! *haha* seriously, i love the dude.. life would be a bit more boring without him...
extra thanks to jane for the on-site support *yeah* JIVE!!
aiite!! today!!!
went to arab street for lunch with ruth today 
and got lost!!! haiyah...
then aft we went to bugis to watch yours mine and ours... i think thats the name of the show... haha... it was nice~~!
oh and i got a GIG!!!! ruth and i walked past the blujaz today, then i just wondered out loud if i should go in and ask for singers... then ruth just pulled me in =) haha! i got a tryout next friday with a jazz band!! and if i make it... i got a job!! wooo!!! thanks ruth!! love you!!!
then we took neoprint!!! ^^ had dinna and watched shaolin soccer at the same time *haha*
it was great today! =) and she directed me to the wrong bus!! hurr!!
ermm... but i kinda left my wallet in the taxi... butttt... nvm la! it's gonna come back to me amen!! *grinz*
wah hungry... haha..
10 things
eh!! i realize it la!! i only use my blog during my hols la!! cheyyy!!! i like pay for nothing wan lorrr!!
alrite la...
okok 10 things i wanna do RIGHT NOW!!!
1. go ice-skating... a few more hours =)
2. erm... find a job!! walau... like really no gigs la... or all must play guitar wan... unplugged!!! i need a contract... bad...
3. eat ice cream!!
4. listen to sermon... can't coz my stupig cd player broke yest...
5. go out with LD... he's gonna become a daddy in a couple of days, so erm better book him first.. go pak toh... *laughs*
6. grow taller!!!!!! haha... geng whye always told me i better grow taller in order to get a good recording contract... and i'll still want to even if it didn't affect that....
7. do campppppppp... i misss camp... i miss jerm... i miss sentosa... i miss palawan... i miss gopal... i miss ben say... i miss nana... i miss andrew... i miss CX... i miss bruce... i miss veron... i miss bao... i miss my beach bedd... i even miss the stupid rats in the instructor room... roti prata roti prata burn u i burn u i burn u chaoda!!
8. sleep! haha.. later tml sleep and fall down on the ice...
9. SING!!! my voice isnt back all the way yet... angry can? my head tone is half missing and my falso sounds scratchy...
10... ermmm ermmm.. get married have kids... bla bla bla... okok.. i can't think of anything else i wanna do that can be published for all to see... hmm.. *haha* private can?
haiii... why liddat?
=)
anyway... ruth and i went to east coast today =) damn fun.. she learnt how to ride bike!! haha.. bowling.. eating alot.. sitting on the beach.. =) aiyah.. it was fun la... and i'm lazy to type it all out... so, tooooooooo baddddd!!!
*mUaHaHAhaha*
[pt 2, 19-03-06]
ermm.. i didnt feel like adding a new blog and letting the whole world know that ash blogged.. *ha* so yeah i'm just editing this one..
ahh wah irritating can? i lost my voice again... that means, can't sing today... erm ok la can, but i sound bad and it hurts.. *grrr* sneezing like heck too.. stupid lying symptoms...
anyway, it seems like the new song i'm writing is never gonna be completed, can't fig out anything except part of the first verse and even that feels wrong to sing... although the chording sounds great la the wonders of playing with guitar strings...
*haiz* maybe it's never gonna take flight, like many of my songs... some simply for the reason i'm too lazy to get a demo done, or i sound bad unplugged....
oh talking(typing i mean) abt demo tapes... i've decided to add third day's my hope is in you to mine... along with janet's 像我这样你也爱... if she allows me to use it that is...
anyways... on a brighter note, i went walking ard with Imm today... my covenant bro... went for teh tarik at the arab street "blessed by allah the most gracious the most wonderful smth brothers shop" *haha*had a great time la... not to mention, i bought some super new bright red sneakers today... *laughs* wah can stop car wan can!? *haha*
yeah... my guitar's like next to me la... but i dun wanna pick it up... then get composer's block again... *haha*
i definately have enough songs for 1 1/2 albums liao la... but cutting albums are expensive... so i gotta get signed first... =) soon la amen? and it'll be a good contract... with a recording!! amen amen =) aiight la... tired of typing...
Ash signing off!!
-selah!
...
and all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
smth thats of worth
that will bless Your heart...
i'll bring You more than a song
for a song in itself
it's not what You have required
You search much deeper within
thru the way things appear
You're looking into my heart...
i'm comin back to the heart of worship
where it's all abt You
all abt You Jesus
i'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
but it's all abt You
all abt You Jesus..
King of endless worth
no one else compares
how much You deserve
though i'm weak and poor
all i have is Yours
every single breath
i'll bring You more than a song
for a song in itself
it's not what You have required
You search much deeper within
thru the way things appear
You're looking into my heart...
i'm comin back to the heart of worship
where it's all abt You
all abt You Jesus
i'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
but it's all abt You
all abt You Jesus..
yeah i guess its the one and only song that i didn't write, yet still describes the way i've always felt...
even right now, at the point of my life where it seems i'm leaving almost everything i used to know and love, for another path...
the songs i sing will still always be to and for You Jesus...
-Selah-
[edited 21-03-06] haha i dun feel like adding a new blog la.. so i'm editing another blog again... =)
smths i just wonder... is this it? that's all life's gonna be?
i study, pursue my music career, get married and get a degree... make it big...
does it all make sense?
how can man, that was built to dream ever be satisfied with that? all around me i see people, and even friends, losing that hope that there has to be more... more than playing in bars, more than singing at weddings and events, more than just surviving, more than the simple study then get married and go work life that seems to entrap the world and it's population... smths i see CDs in stores, that get taken off the shelves a week after they were put there... or self made records and albums being sold for 4.50 a piece... will these ppl ever make it?
smths i even wonder about myself...
i look back at the times where i stood in some music shop staring at a DOVE awards cd, looking at the names printed on the back... steven curtis chapman... third day... mercy me...
and visualising my own name printed there next to theirs...
steven curtis chapman... sonic flood... mercy me... asher low... caedmons call... third day...
then there's the desire to preach His love..
now i think... is that it? is there a limit to how grand a life can be?
there's gotta be more...
more to this life than this... more to life, well at least mine, than what i'm living now... working thru school, training, doing camps, singing, modeling... writing songs that might never ever be heard...
more...
LD told me a story once... he asked me where the richest place on earth was(oh i use this alot during trainings)...
i couldn't think of an answer he would accept... *haha* but when it was all said and done... he said this, Asher, the richest place on earth, is a graveyard... coz thats where, all the dreams, the desires of those who died lay buried... and i thought to myself, what if those people did chase their dreams? what new songs, new books, inventions, men of God, scientific theories would there be today?
and then i understood..
the importance of my dreams... however big, however impossible at times, however real they seem...
i understood how important they were...
i'm just a man of many dreams, many ambitions, with nothing to prove, and nothing to see them thru with.. but the love and impossibility to fail of Jesus behind me... i'm not afraid to fail, i'm not afraid to fall... after all, that's happened too many times before... but sooner or later, i'm gonna make the impossible possible... sooner or later...
more to this life...
selah...
today huh...
on my way down to the office, i met a dude that asked me for 2 bucks to go see a doctor today...
i ended up buying him lunch and preaching to him.. *laughs* never know when thats gonna happen right? yup... yeah and when i was gonna sit down somewhere else after i had sent him off to the doc... some other dude wanted to talk to me!!
seems he saw the whole thing... well... turns out he's a WL in some other church... the whole thing was pretty cool... yeah...
anyways... man i'm still not totally prepped for monday's training... that sucks big time... but heyy.. with God's grace ah... it'll be good..
難以忘記初次見你 一雙迷人的眼睛
在我腦海裡 你的 影 揮散不去
握你的雙手感覺你 溫柔
真的有點透不過氣 你的天真 我想 惜
看到你受委屈 我 傷心
只怕我自己會愛上 不敢讓自己靠 太近
怕我沒什麼能夠給 愛你也需要很 的勇氣
只怕我自己會愛上
也許有天會情不自
想念只讓自己苦了 己
愛上你是我情非得
愛上你是我情非得 ...
i guess i'm feeling like that now... *haha* well it'll wear off soon....
awright my jian bi zhi is missing on my njstar... *grr* damn hard to read can!? *haha*
till next time =)
unity primary OEIII!!!