EMRS
This would prolly be my last post here on this blog... well... maybe...
EMRS is over!! mann... what a time of great time that was... getting to do events, sourcing, slacking *oops!*, making great friends... mann.. i'm already missing 108A and all the great times i had there... even more, i'm already missing Team3... Qilah, Harrold, Shirley, Jie Yi, John, Nad, Shu Mei... mann... you guys rawk BIG TIME man... thanks! =) what a team...
it's quite amazing how attached you can get to people over just a few months... heyy, maybe after awhile, we'll be "hi, bye" friends... but... still, it was a great time being with them *smiles*
i can't put it into words, but i bet EMRS will be etched into my memories for a long long time to come...
emrs rawked!
oh and btw... KSDP3 ended... Robin, Angel and i sent Jiwon to the airport yest morn... bye Jay1!! it was great dancing with you =)
well... it's finally here... my last (and very short) post and prolly goodbye to musicmonkay.tblog.com... filled to the brim with memories, and wadevanot i wrote in here...
Cya'll peeps at the next blog!! and keep posted for the blog addie!!
Byee!!
-Selah-
Asher...
EMRS
This would prolly be my last post here on this blog... well... maybe...
EMRS is over!! mann... what a time of great time that was... getting to do events, sourcing, slacking *oops!*, making great friends... mann.. i'm already missing 108A and all the great times i had there... even more, i'm already missing Team3... Qilah, Harrold, Shirley, Jie Yi, John, Nad, Shu Mei... mann... you guys rawk BIG TIME man... thanks! =) what a team...
it's quite amazing how attached you can get to people over just a few months... heyy, maybe after awhile, we'll be "hi, bye" friends... but... still, it was a great time being with them *smiles*
i can't put it into words, but i bet EMRS will be etched into my memories for a long long time to come...
emrs rawked!
oh and btw... KSDP3 ended... Robin, Angel and i sent Jiwon to the airport yest morn... bye Jay1!! it was great dancing with you =)
well... it's finally here... my last (and very short) post and prolly goodbye to musicmonkay.tblog.com... filled to the brim with memories, and wadevanot i wrote in here...
Cya'll peeps at the next blog!! and keep posted for the blog addie!!
Byee!!
-Selah-
Asher...
*smiles*
Oh Lord You’ve searched me,
You know my way;
Even when I fail You,
I know You love me.
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.
Chorus:
At the cross I bow my knee,
Where Your blood was shed for me,
There’s no greater love than this.
You have overcome the grave,
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now?
Verse 2:
You go before me,
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me;
I know You love me.
And when the earth fades,
Falls from my eyes,
And You stand before me,
I know You love me;
I know You love me.
Bridge:
You tore the veil, You made a way
When You said that it is done.
blah
i'm feeling really blah now...
feeling kinda lost...
it seems like everything's planned out nicely for me... my music career's just beginning to blossom... i'm steadily becoming a better dancer... once i finish TEP i'm going back to training...
but... i dunno... it's so empty...
how come i used to be so content with so little? happily serving in tzt... in the smallest unnoticable ministry... and now when everything's goin so smoothly, i feel so lousy?
i miss tzt... i miss the old BOB... i miss hanging out with ian and cliff and talking abt gals, stealing ian's bananas... *laughs* i miss secondary school... aslam and the gang... whatsup man...
somehow somewhere i think i lost something... maybe it was all that condemnation over the last few years that i've been serving.. maybe it was pride... maybe it was everything that happened all at once... i guess its just the time in my life where the rubber really meets the road hard...
maybe i'm just lonely... i guess i just disillusioned myself, thinking that i could fill that empty space inside with someone... she didnt even meet the most impt requirement on my list... *laughs* i can be a real idiot smths.. i cause most of the crap in my own life...
oh yeah i'm lonely...
haha... i don't even see my closest friends anymore... ian's away studying.. aslam's in a diff sch... lauda's away tending to his new baby... (pastor)darren's super bz with work...
thank God for ben and rach...
i'm always putting up a front... the dude that's always smiling... always full of crap... always there to make you smile... even when i'm feeling like crap...
i'm so sick of living on my own... taking care of myself... taking care of others... taking my mum's crap with a smile, coz no one else will... being the dude that's there for all the other people that no one else wants... who's watching my back? who was there for me when my mum got into debt? there were only 3 people who were there for me when i was emotionally screwed... who was there for me when i was so condemned by the very people i trusted the most? the other leaders that served together with me... only laoda...
i just want a break... i need a break... i want a break from life... maybe that's why i've been getting these urges to go to korea to watch the armory cup... *haha* and take in the countryside on the way huh...
then i keep doing things that are sooo stupid... things that i regret like 5 seconds later and a simple sorry won't help... then i spend the rest of the day thinking what a jerk i was... then i punish myself by breaking really hard and getting injured... what's happening to me?
i'm just feeling so totally crappy right now... i know i'll be alright tml... the same smiley dude that craps with ben and chang and irritates rach... the same smiley dude that will help ronald and push with their artwork... the same smiley dude that always does his best to be the nicest guy to the new dudes in the cg... or the lady that cleans the tables in the canteen...
hey i'm entitled to be emo for at least one night right?
i'm just so tired... i wanna fast forward this part of my life... fast forward it to the part where i get married... or to the part that i go full time... maybe go back to my days in tzt... but i know that that's not possible...
Jesus take the wheel... carry me over... teach me to rest again...
*brushes dust off blog*
mann... i'm bored... *haha* and i'm feeling really sick...
i guess i should blog la.... since i paid for this stupid blog anyway...
lots of stuff happened since i last blogged....
welll.. i did a camp with some pschool la... *haha* can't remember...
fun...
thenn there was Jam&Hop... man that was disappointing... lousy music... and i was injured... so i couldnt do much... *laughs*
i think i'm falling in love with breaking all over again *laughs* windmill!!!!
then there was fashion fitness... where i got so stressed and pek chek it was amazing...
*haha* mann...
i guess... i do forget what my life is about at times... and sometimes i do go into states of emo-ness?? sometimes i make stupid mistakes... butt... heyy
i read a story about a Man of God once... and someone asked him... "dude what will you do if today was your last day on earth??" and his reply was, "i would plant a tree"... thinking that that had some really spiritual or significant meaning to it... the man was duly impressed... but the Man of God continued, "i would plant a tree, coz that's what i planned to do today..."
y'know... if i really didnt live each day as if it was gonna be my last... and kept dragging myself through life... i'll regret it...
whatever happened to those days where ther e seemed to be a reason for each day?? *haha* i guess... sometimes... even mighty men lose their focus... *laughs* as if i'm much of a mighty man.. butt.. mistakes do happen... all i can do is get over them =)
and know that i'm a zillion times bigger on the inside, than i am on the outside...
*hahas* on to another point...
ben and i were talking about our dream girl to marry... haha (yes i talk about girls)
well.. i came up with this la...
i want her to be... pretty... she wont nag me... she'll be able to sing(or dance) *haha* and... she MUST be a woman of God... haha... heyy.. i think i prefer tomboys to girly girls!!
anyways... i was thinking about Phi and Darren... haha.. i always wanted to follow in their footsteps mann... date a girl for super long... then marry her? hahaha i think that's kinda cool...
haha.. oh welll... we'll leave that for another time la... *laughs*
my Dad will provide... *laughs*
ok!! i've just about rambled about everything under the sun! stay tuned for the next episode of... Asher Rambles!! byeeee!! *closing song*